Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. -Jean-Jacques Rosseau
In my on-going battle to conquer black and white, I find myself struggling because I am so impatient. I don’t do well with transitions in any way, shape or form, because they are nothing but GRAY. The boundaries of the old are no longer in place, and the boundaries of the new are also not yet in place. I find myself in between them and unsure of what to do. Transitions can be anything—from one job to the next, one state to the next, one training plan to the next, or just moving into a realm of trying something new. Today, I took some time to reflect upon this as my patience has been tested in several areas, and I realized that my impatience is often a response to the anxiety I’m feeling about the gray. I am guilty of being too predictable & routine at this point in my life, but I find a lot of security in knowing my role & my boundaries in various aspects of my life. The only thing certain in life is change. This I know quite well. I had several conversations with good friends lately about patience. While I may not enjoy the transitions I am experiencing, it is helpful to remember that the patience I display will help to increase the likelihood of promising results. So while I may be done being THERE and wanting to be elsewhere, focusing on the HERE will help me yield the outcome I want when I get there.
On a side note, my arms are KILLING me from this challenge of 6000—doing 200 push ups and 200 crunches per day for the month of July. Tina reminded me tonight to switch up my hand positions, which I think will help. I look forward to the results that will come!!
Here’s to being dealing with the bitterness of patience while holding out hope for some sweet fruit.
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